Yes or No? Right Or Wrong?

In everyones life, what do you think each and everyone of us wanted? OR have you ever wonder what are the most important elements for us as human being to stay alive or success? AND with that all, is that really a benchmarking to evaluate someone is successfull, right and wrong?

Among us, some treat that work is the most important things in life to keep them survive. Without a career, there won't be life. This kind of people, they do have lots of initiative to keep on and on and on diving their lives to a job. They really can perform and colleagues around might envy with his or her capabilities. Well it's all their hardwork to achieve that. But for those that having the envious or sometime jealous feeling towards this capable person, are you willing to give up most of your free time to learn more ? Hmmm .. this is the point ... if your answer is 'NO', you know the results ...

Coming back to these people who most of everyone will salute him at work, don't you think they might be missing a lot in their life? They might not have much of friends around him or her. Why? ... As they put too much time on their work, they neglected the people around them. Also the world outside is very little known to them. Do you think they are happy with it? From an outsider point of view, we might say 'Yes' or a 'No' .. Well we are not them. How are we going to know the answer. We are giving the answer or a judgement on behalf based on what we think we have wanted for our life. So a Yes or a No, Right or Wrong, no one knows.

Some, will just did very well in the work they are doing now but they do not intend to climb up high in the corporate ladder. Those with the higher ambitious and craze for power, they'll do anything to allow themselves to climb up high or want themselves to be notice by the higher management. In this path, a lot of ugly things will happens. The unlucky ones, might end up pitifully being used as a stepping stones. And as the people around, gossiping starts. There might be news that the lady/guy slept with her/his boss that makes them powerful in the office and so on. BUT how true is that? Does anyone really sees that person on the bed fucking their bosses? Well if they really do, do you think it is wrong? As a human being, we being granted with emotions, love and lust. So what they did, is just to satisfy their sexual needs or lust. Nothing wrong with it. No one can force if either one of them object when the courting game starts.

And these power crazed being, might sacrifice people around them to climb up high, do you think they are wrong? Most all of us will say they are Wrong and shouldn't do that. But from the person him or herself, they are not wrong. They are just doing things that they are suppose to do for them to achieve. What and why they should have bother about other peoples opinion or comments on them? For those that don't agree on what i've said, let me ask you a question, if you see someone being robbed or bullied at the street, will you go over and help? i am sure you don't even bother as you might say to yourself, it's not your problem and why you want to get yourself into trouble. Well that's my point, everything that a person do, is not other people's business. So what is the problem for a person to behave the way they are? This doesn't meant that i agree some killing or robbing or raping or bullying is right things to do. But i must say that there must be a some reasons behind. They might facing some stress or mentally illed. So at the end, when somethings happens, there is a Right side of it and also the Wrong side of it. 

For me, i does hope and envy those backpackers life that they can travel around and need not to work their ass out. But then it came back to a question whether do i willing to give up everything that a backpacker does? They might be selling off all their properties to achieve their travelling dreams as well as they don't have a career of their own .. There's no definite answer for me, it could be a YES, but it could be a NO too ..

Well, some older generation might be thinking what a stupid act and loser you are without those things in your life. For these folks, money is very important, no money you are poor, no money you are a loser. Are they right about that ? Well, no doubt these backpackers are poor BUT that is just a matter of monetory terms. In fact the more you travel, the richer you are in terms of knowledge WHICH money CAN'T buy. 

So at the end, i think there is no definite answer to a YES or NO, Right or Wrong. We are using it to help us get sort of majority agreement or disagreement to make oneself felt better i guess .... But in every matter that happens, there might be a union in it... Hard to say...that's why in this content, you might think i am wrong and you are right, or even i might be right also ... ha ha ha ... go figure out on your own...

NOTES : The above is just my own thoughts ...

Frustration Strikes Again!

Was so frustrated yesterday. Thought of having a nice time with her shopping around to survey for whatever things either for our new home or what so ever. Knowing that she sure having problems walking on her high heels, purposely brought her to a shoe shop to get a comfortable shoes.

Planned to go and shop around at those furniture shops that sells nice clock and also furniture after she chose her new pair of shoes. At the shoe shop, she not able to find her shoes. And then she lost her mood. Damn! i am so pissed and fed up.

In the car, she told me have to be consideradable. Well how can i not considerate enough? this is not the first time. It happens so many times. Either it is her heels problem or she's feeling tired after shop for a while. Sometime when i talked to the sales person, she also lost her mood and then begin with her sleepy mood.

Imagine that you with the high spirit and trying to spend a good time with your other half. With all those happens, that is really 'Potong Steam' ! ... Frankly, i felt much happier shopping and hang around surfing at starbucks alone now ...

My Day

(NOTE: Wrote the post on the 17th Sept 09)....

I am older another year today. All these while, there's not much of people will remember my birthday. Even my close school friends also doesn't remember. Maybe i am not a popular kid. Out from the 32 years of my life, i guess this year i got most of the wishes and guess how they knew? From Facebook. Appreciate all the nice words and wishes they've sent to me. Don't know the wishes will come true or not but it is nice to read it.

While writing this post, a lot of the past events pops up in my mind. So decided just to write down some of the things which i've done or achieved for my year 2008 until to date. Hmmm...The biggest event for me in 2008 was my wedding which falls on the 7th September. Thanks a lot to my friends who really drove all the way to Ipoh to attend my wedding. Of course not to forget my Uncles,Aunties, cousin sisters and brothers, thanks again to be there to support me when i needs someone i called family to be there to give me a lift and to witness the big day of my life. This is something money can't buy. Another happy thing is that there is one unusual guest that attend my wedding. Guess WHO? ... ha ha .. Haan ...thanks a lot. I got to know that all these years of her life, she never attends her friends wedding. But she took the effort to get MC and follow me to Ipoh for my wedding. It was just a simple wedding night, no grand and fancy stuff. Is the support from all of you that that brighten up the whole event.

Remembered the first time i get up close with a DSLR was during my trip to Cambodia with the gang in March 2008. Jamie brought her DSLR, 350D, and i got the chance to play around with it for a while. And then got to know Haan as well owned a D40 during my trip to Sg. Lembing. The bugs really bites hearing the shutter sounds and the photo outcome from a DSLR. So finally got my Finance Minister to approved the budget, i pulled Haan together to Low Yat Plaza and bought myself a D80 for my last year birthday.

My D80 was in full blast mode during my backpack trip together with Ivy (my wife), Haan and Wyng. First time saw Wyng at the airport, she's like very cool type. So i also act cool. She just arrived from Singapore at LCCT to fly together to Hanoi. After a while, maybe after we've warmed up already, HEH!, all the real characters emerged from our innerself. Ha ha ha .. and the fun began... Met with Huong in Hanoi. A pretty and nice girl who brought us around the places as well as good and cheap food. Also not to forget Binh. A talkative and sometime really irritating but a generous and nice guy. We spent our Christmas and New Year there. Unbelievable thing was we spent our Christmas eve in a jerky train cabin rather than in a pub or club.

In year 2009, spent a few months in India for work purposes. First time handling India project so I do have some culture shock working with those Indian over there. For those that been worked there, you'll know why their country is still not as developed with the huge amount of headcounts .. ha ha ... Anyway, quite happy over there together with the whole project team. The work might be very tedious and tiring but we always able to find something to entertain ourselves either by throwing out some dirty jokes or what so ever.

Once came back from India, I flew to China. This trip is not for me. I brought my grandma and my aunt back to Hainan island to visit our relatives there. Got the chance to interact with most of them. They were really happy to see us going back there. My grandma's last visit there was when i was very young. Can't remember the year. I knew she missed her born place very much and due to now a days her walking capability is not convenient, she didn't ask or talk about how much she missed her Kampung. Since now the air ticket is fairly cheap, i took this opportunity to bring her back.

After that trip, i flew back to India again for about a month and then without delaying, i took my diving license and pass the exam. Ivy and Haan joined me in Redang. They were there to take their Advance Open Water. The funny thing is that these 2 girls, Haan, her last dive was 1 year ago. That was when she dive to qualify for the Open water license and Ivy, her last dive was in February where she did her Open Water in Sipadan, they were excited but then they looked a bit pale when reached Redang. ha ha ha .. They are actually worried they can't handle it. These 2 girls usually banyak cakap and a bit cocky one. But on that day, i felt they have sort of chill feeling from their inner heart ....ha ha ... Anyway, they are able to complete the course. As for me, me and one pretty girl, Kimberly, planning to do Advance Water once after my Open Water qualifying. (Haih) ... sad case. Both of us not able to do so. She's having severe headache due to the equalization problem and me, having problem with my sinus. I felt the pain in my forehead when i am under water and then lots of blood came out from my nose when i am at surface and not able to leisure dive the next day due to the sinus caused me pain when i was in the water for about 3 meters. Have to emerged back to the surface and stay on the boat waiting for the others. So our instructor stopped us from proceeding to the Advance Water dive.

While i was writing this, i am actually preparing for my birthday lunch with my colleagues. Who will ever know that i got a birthday present. It's a support issues from the patching done early morning by the engineers. Luckily this was not known by customer. With the fast action from the developer, we solved it on the spot without the client knowing. hehehe ... but then, my birthday lunch has been cancelled.

There aren't any backpack tripped being arranged this year. In fact there are but then has been cancelled due to our tight work schedule. Anyhow, there will be a trip to China, Tang shan, to attend my colleague's wedding. So will take this opportunity to backpack a bit in Beijing.

Oh yah, also not to forget about getting keys for my new house. 2 years passed with a blink of an eye. Finally got my house keys and now me and Ivy, having some headache comparing and choosing contractors. We have to cut here and there to reduce the renovation costs. (Haih)..what to do, safe costs mah ...In fact, i've booked for my sofa which cost about RM xx,xxx. ha ha .. Also placed deposit for my walk-in wardrobe (which i felt like a bit more on the expensive side.. so will continue survey other hopefully to find a cheaper one)...Hope that able to move in by end of this year and celebrate my Christmas at my new house. Haan told me that when i moved in, she'll wants to sleep on my sofa. Now the 'next time', i don't know when will it be. She chose her path to moved on to New Zealand and the return date is unknown. Now i have less one person to chit chat with in office. Ivy was actually missing her so much and indeed she cried last night. Maybe both of them are really close to a level i didnt know. Well, sure i am going to missed her a lot too but not until that crying level ... Maybe because I am someone Haan "Hates" a lot, so i also dont want to missed her too much until cry cry loh ... ngeh ngeh ngeh ngeh ....

One thing that really makes me angry and heartbroken. It was my dog Phoebe. I let someone to adopt her but because of this stupid new owner doesn't take any precaution measure,she ran out and lost within 2 hours reaching the new house. I rushed all the way to Klang to searh for her but still can't find her any where. I am still angry with the fat bitch and everytime i think about it again, my heart felt uncomfortable. I felt so sad and cried.

Hmmm, well i guess that's more or less about what have I done and happening around me. People and things comes and go. Expected became Unexpected, unexpected might just happens. why i say this? well, like my wedding, all my schoolmate friends, no one take it serious when i invite them to my wedding in Ipoh, and those friend which i got to know not really long, they all showed up. Someone who don't usually attend other people's wedding, also showed up. Also never expect that Haan will leave the company so fast as well. I guess that's called life.

Again, thanks for all the support (especially to my wife) that you all has given to me. No matter which part of the world you are and what are you doing, ALL DA BEST & Enjoy your life, to ensure we do not felt regret when we were old.

I Knew What I Did For The Past Few Weeks.

Hi All. I am back in India again. In Kolkata now.

Been in india for about 2 months since March and then went back to Malaysia for about 3 weeks.Within that 3 weeks, what i've done?

Firstly, took an assignment cum pratice in wedding photoshoot. (haih), it was a total dissapoinment.
Not even up to my own standard. So i decided taking actual day's wedding photos is not my cup of tea.

Secondly, took a week off and rought my grandma back to her born place.Didn't go anywhere during my visit in China except visiting all the relatives and being bitten by some invisible mosquitoes. More than 100 bites for both of my legs.

Luckily the itchiness was not as bad as the time i kena while my Pinaccles hiking. Anyway, this trip was not made for me either. Is for my grandmother. As long she's happy then i am happy. One thing i not happy is the service of Air Asia. Totally NOT disabled friendly at all. (haih), no mood to write about it at all. Just forget it.

Thirdly, took another assignment to shoot Yoga photos. Ermm, at least there's some nice photos. In this photo shooting session, here came a big fat ass malay lady. She was the so called art director for the photo session. Well, why is there art director?. Because the photo i am shooting suppose to be use for the brochure of the Yoga centre and she is the one to in-charge for the brochure. They've chose the Lake Garden as the shooting location. This is fine. Then this lady, chose the same green tree background.

(haih), sien like that. There is lotus pond there and a nice big water fountain which she didn't ever used it as background. This is either she's too fat and lazy to walk there or she is with the plain narrow Malay taste of photo sense. I will arrange another day with the gang to shoot what i've wanted.

Well all those things has been accomplished in 3 weeks time. And now here i am sitting here in my sick body, no mood to work and writing blog updates.Suppose to fly back this weekend but that is just a Mission Imppossible.

I do brought my camera along to India with me but i didn't shoot any photo at all.

Hotel Story

We reached at our hotel around 1 pm. Well both of us are quite tired. Woke up at 4am and reach Kolkata in the noon. When we reached at the hotel, to our surprise our name was not in the booking list. (haih) .. then ask the reception to call to our partner to confirm that again. Finally they settled everything for us.

Lytton Hotel

Then told us breakfast is included but not dinner. Damn, previously i got the partner's email saying that the breakfast and dinner is included. No energy to argue so much. If the dinner really included, it will be a surplus to us. (Our partner treat us too good)...

Went to our room immediately thinking to take a rest and bath before go on-site. Once we settled ourselves on the bed, we got bitten by bed bugs i think. Me not that serious. Then immediately the air-cond pulak rosak.

View from the air-cond hole of our room

Haih .. call to change our room. But they try their best not to arrange for the room change. They sent their maintenance guys to fix the air cond and the housekeeping to change the bed sheet .. and ... spray some bug repellent (i think) ...

We gave some tips to the house keeping guy as he walk up and down and try hard to serve you. We knew what he wanted ... So we just sent him away with Rs 50 ... By the time we settled down again, damn, here you go another guy came bring a flask of water and teach us how to use the remote, this and that .. stupid .. want money again .. i just sent him away without giving him anything .. Quickly locked our doors and take our rest and boost the air condition... he he ...

(Pssst... then while i were in the shower, the reception called up and told us our dinner is included ..hehe ... order what ever you want from the menu)

Life in Pune ...

This week was a boring week for me. Planned to go paragliding but then didn't make it. Got to wake up really early in the morning and with the super duper hot and dry weather, all these really makes me back off with my plan.

Didn't go anywhere except to spend times in the bookstores. Yah, Landmark again. Spent few hours there read books without paying. Such a cheapo...When i were leaving the place, those street beggars came and begs at me and ideed touched me. YUKES !!! .... As soon i got back, i removed my shirt and jeans and asked the caretaker to washed it...

I've been leaving my camera in the apartment and i got no mood at all to take photos over here. I think i've went to most of the place in Pune and nothing much that i could shoot anymore.

I've been on a vegetables diet for this whole week. It's so damn hard to find green leafy vegetables. The other day bought a brinjal and ask the caretaker to cook it. The most i like from the vege menu of his is the mushrooms. The rest are so so.

Well probably i am bored seeing too much of same skin color which not attractive at all. I tried to find if there's any fashion show going around in Pune. Too bad there was one in Delhi.

As for work wise, now pending only on the network equipments delivery. The delay was due to there is some monetory issues. Awaiting for the commercial team to settle it. Last Friday, the commercial lady told me it has been settled and as today i checked, there are still issues.Haih .. All this really fucked up. So i can't take it anymore and wrote an email to escalate directly to steering committee. I used bold red font. Well i think it's not that right for me to do that BUT i am a PM, well it's my job to let them know that is a critical issues and if it doesn't resolve soon, it is going to dragged the whole project schedule.

Well when i am back to Malaysia, i'll want to participate in a portraiture workshop if there's any. Or i will setup one by myself. Who wants to be my model? Let me know yah ...